i am always going on WebMD and other medical websites when i am not feeling well, or when i start a new medication or something. i love self diagnosing myself... sometimes i am even right! Today while i was looking up side effects of my new medication- i saw that it was used to treat something called Gastroparesis. So of course-i clicked on the link to see if thats what i have. talking about the physical stomach issues- not the mental ones.
It seems like it could be what i have- not like i am a doctor- but it makes sense. and it makes me sad... because it says it can be caused from : anorexia, bulimia, and abnormal eating patterns.
Makes me sad, because it shows how what i was doing (and am doing) really affected me physically. if only i could have been smarter, and thought things through more. But i guess the good thing is that i am getting this stuff fixed now. its better late than never right?
eating has been ok- that past couple days. its easier when i am with a bunch of people- because i eat. I don't want anyone to think anything is wrong. but i don't enjoy all of it yet. but being distracted is always better. this weekend was very distracting. So distracting that i just realized that i forgot to go to therapy today. wow. here i am blogging about everything going on- and i forget the key component. :(
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