focus on the positive

tomorrow is the day my period is due.

its coming right now. there has been a small amount of blood, and i can feel it. i am so sad. Words don't do justice to the sadness. There is no way to describe what this feeling is like every month.

it is a feeling of absolute defeat. one that i have never felt until doing fertility treatments. it is the worst pain i have ever experienced.

i had a good feeling this time. But i have had a good feeling every time.

trying to focus on the positive. We have still only done 5 months of fertility treatment. and have only been "actually" trying for 8 months.

IUI is supposed to work within 3-4 tries. this was try 3. i say we give try 4 a chance. if that doesn't work- we move to ivf. 

we still have options.

i just want my family.