2WW

The dreaded 2WW.

i have 4 more days left in my 2WW. and they are torture.

if you don't know, 2WW is the 2 week period of time between ovulation & knowing if you are pregnant.

this is my 5th 2WW and it isn't any easier than the ones before it.

I thought i was doing so good. Not thinking about it. Not stressing. Just living life and feeling carefree. What will be will be and all that. but today it hit me. Like a ton of bricks.

Today i feel cramps- and my day is ruined. Cramps can mean anything. It could be period cramps or pregnancy cramps. So letting myself be broken about cramps is pointless. But it is real.

I want to lay in bed and cry right now.

the 2WW is seriously the worst.

i realize that i haven't been blogging much and this is probably something i should be blogging. even if no one ever reads it- at least i am letting my feelings out. and thats whats important....right?

My doctor said she recommends we move to IVF if this cycle doesn't take. I am ready for that. So ready. I am ready to be pregnant. But i am scared.

i don't even know what to write anymore.

i am so tired.