What a night.... Most of it was fun, but I drank too much... Which in turn usually means I eat too much too... Went to bed feeling really guilty. My emotions were ridiculous too... Basically a mess....
I try so hard, everyday. I try to just be normal. Do what normal people without all these bullshit issues would do. Eat dinner with the family, have beers and eat some snacks- and not have these things alter your entire world... Go out to lunch with friends and eat what you want to eat, and not feel like shit about it later. But that's just not my reality.
I really thought I was getting better... But right now, I feel worse. All I think about it food and my body. It's draining. My insecurities are at an all time high right now... I seriously can't think of really anything i feel good about right now... How sad.
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