Trying

I feel like I try so hard, all the time. I am always trying... And it feels like more often then not- I fall short. However I don't think it's me truly falling short- at least not all the time. I feel like sometimes it just because I try to make everyone happy... And I just try to always be nice and what not.

It's not all its cracked up to be... I leave myself out all the time instead. Take all the heat and frustration anyone has even if I am not in the wrong... Or haven't even done anything other then just be myself...

This post is all over the place. But the point is that I am always putting everyone before myself.... And it's all because I just want to make everyone happy- but a lot of times that back fires on me. I don't know how to change that. I just don't.

So hard

An eating disorder... Anorexia... Is the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with and try to overcome... I wouldn't wish this on anyone

Fallen to the wayside...

I have totally failed on my project love myself goal- and I have totally fallen into feeling alone again... And feeling bad about myself. I have had 2 bad days in a row- and I feel so alone right now. It sucks

Project Love Myself- Day 8

its been a rough couple days. i just haven't been feeling well- physically and mentally. i feel fat, gross, etc. and it is bringing me down...and i hate this. it needs to change...

Day 8: Try to feel as good as possible today and not be brought down...

Project love myself- day 7

I took a few days off, to just enjoy the holidays. I had an endoscopy procedure done on the 23rd , which came out good. They gave me some new meds and are gonna run some more tests. Day 6 was as successful as it could be. It was a hard goal and a hard thing for me to handle and deal with. I think I did an alright job. I probably could have done better, but that's fine. I will do better next time.

Day 7- stick up for myself

I tend to back down easily when people say something I don't like or rude, or what not. I hate that about myself. I want to stand up for myself and make my voice heard.

Project love Myself- day 6

Yesterday's goal was to feel beautiful and own it. I am very pleased to say that I think it has been my most successful day yet. I felt amazing all day and felt truly beautiful. It was a wonderful feeling and I can't wait to have more days like that.

Day 6: think about and touch my stomach in a positive way at least three times.

Project Love Myself - Day 5

Day 4 was pretty good. I actually had one of the best nights with Camerin. We just hung out and watched a movie in bed. I was fully present the whole time and it was amazing.

Today I forgot to blog my day 5 goal.

Day 5: Enjoy feeling beautiful and confident. Own it. Truly believe it.